Strong and Silent types

I threw a surprise for my friend and it was really fun. Including the fact that i didnt know anyone who were there except one. and that is also barely. The birthday girl was happy thou. So there were 4 couples there. Gay, uninterested ,interested and i-dont-know-whose-his-girlfriend couple! HAHAHAH. and then among them there was 5 singles. and like 1 guy who was. I realised i dont find guys who have girlfriends cute.  I tend to get over them quickly. This guy.. i THINK has a girlfriend somewhere.. he was on the phone texting most of the time. He is the kind that is silent..dont know whats going on in his head. and i am attracted to that for some reason. Is it me or these types are actually fun to be with? I mean thinking about it i have been attracted to those kinds. I like the guy tto be LOUD and open too .... its confusing no?
This guy was so uncomfortable when i sat down beside him.. I had to tell him to relax and question his sexuality. I even came out and told him he was cute. He relaxed but i feel the butterflies when  we look at each other. I am heck obvious when i like a guy. No point hiding it. and no point playing games. I just wont go upright and tell them.. Not cause i dont want to get rejected.. but cause some of them like the game of "whether she likes me or not". I try not to be too obvious.. but eh, so much i can do. 
OH.. and he has curly hair, big brown eyes. and he isnt hot or anything. but he is cute. in that baby way.
Or.. maybe it was cause i didnt know whether he liked me or not.HAHAH.. i am contradicting my words. But no.. I like the chase part and some guys do too but i make it clear when i like a guy. unless he is too insecure to figure it out for himself. or modest.


Oh well.. moving on. I didnt know anyone. So it was more of a social thing for me.  The thing is there were these 16 people in ONE group.. The whole big group effect. it looks awesome from the outside but as always there is some story inside. But i dont think i would mind the drama, just as long as i can be happy with 16 people getting along and enjoying a party. 
I loved being there. But these are my friend's group and i dont feel right even mixing with them later on. I know i think too much.. but lets see.. I HAVE NEVER WORKED OUT IN A GROUP.
The facts are all there. My high school friends... I hated what one of them did and people took side. we all may meet up once in a blue moon but we know whose closest to who. My college friends group.. SEM 1.. The fucker of a guy broke my heart and i broke the group apart as well as my high school friends group.. SEM 2.. The fucker of a guy was offensive to MY friend and i took a stand and told him he was being a rude asshole in front of everyone.. and i never hang out with his friends again. 


I am all bad luck in a group for sure. Never managed..So i rather be close to people from different groups...But i wish i could be in this group where its so big that not everyone is close but everyone is there for parties and surprises and fun. They played charades..I am not for that game but they made it fun. maybe cause it was such a huge group. 


Ways to stay in a group:

1. Your love interest is not in it
2. Dont get with anyone in the group
3. Be close enough to have fun but not to expect anything
4. Make sure ur best friends are in the group so u dont lose them and they know ur friends
5. DONT EXPECT THEM TO BE THERE WHEN THINGS GO BAD
6. Learn to not be a bitch to anyone you dont like
7. Be nice 
8. Dont be a headache.. whine/cry all the time/ drunk... something they ALWAYS have to take care of..thats for ur best friends.
9. Be open-minded.. u dont know whose in the group.

Besides that... I have no idea. 

But I narrowed down alot of it. May I find my group soulmates. ;)

xx

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