Another month, still a big ? on the next!

Its AUGUST! yay! Next month,InshAllah, i start my new life in A university i still cant enclose!


Dude.. its a big ?. can u believe it. a month left and no process on fees and visa! I am so screwed.!
I miss the ease of being a kid and being oblivious to how hard the university process would be. Things seemed so much simpler when we were kids. A parent talking about money didnt mean much or how much it would affect yourself, a girl talking about her broken heart not knowing how bad her pain was cause u thought guys had coodies and the girl was crazy to go after one! HAhah.


I use to think differently. Since young, i was always crazy about guys. They were what i called my interest. I could never change that.. I have thought about being Lesbo.. not going to happen dude.. i am way overly boy crazy.


Moving on, I have been thinking about leaving home rigght? University. Big deal. Your kid is old enough to find her place in this scary place called the world. And I am excited, dont get me wrong, but... i am worried/scared. What if something happens to my family and i dont make it to them.? What if i miss out in the best parts? What if i dont survive on my home? What if i ruin my family reputation? what if leaving me on my own, i go out of bounds? what if i miss them too much? what if i hate it there? what if i need them around? I am feeling sick with worry. What if i fall horribly sick? I hate the worrrrryy! who will i turn to? my extended family members. Dude.. not at all. they will cause after of the questions listed above.
i am worried they will be tracking me while i am in university. 


MY FAMILY... i cant wait to leave but i dont want to go. but you cant have both! so i choose to leave with all the worry. Because i need to know who i am without them. I need to live. and nto worry about curfews and what they think about my friends. or about what will happen if their friends find me in a mall with guys! IMAGINE!haahahaha.. the talk. as it is.. i am known to be the worse of the daughters in the sense of not knowing my limits or so they say...but yet the most sweetest, native, respectable one! MY ASSS!!!


for now...


xx


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