eyes coloured green

 i want to bring about Z.T again. i don't know whether i am liking him or not. but today when he said that one of my school friends were hot. i couldn't take it. my heart swelled with envy and my eyes turned green. what the heck do i do now? He made me rethink everything. whether i really like him or he's just a friend whose attention i love more than any guy's attention.!
i am back from clubbing ( :O) hahaha. no. i don't drink. why associate clubbing with drinking people.? if u are decent, u would just be there to be surrounded by loud music and your feet moving! you don't need to drink, right?  The loud, floor vibrating, pounding music makes me high.
anyways.. i left zeeshan there with my friends cause i was to be home before my parents and i didn't tell them i was going.!
i went for dinner.. which i did.. but "forgot" to tell them what was happening later.!
i danced for less than an hour so don't bitch!
leaving that out. i just felt the jealousy rise again when i thought on how he would make a move on her. not her. not any on of them. I HATE IT. maybe that how he felt when i went with V.V, my ex! when he clearly told me he liked me.
oh well, karma is bound to bite back right?
so do i like him? or did i feel his attention would be diverted from me to them!??
urm... i need to sort out my feelings.. but u know what i cant understand is when V.V told me this girl is hot when we were in a relationship, i didnt care. Or when Z.T comments on all the other hot girls around college, i dont really care. I guess its just alot to do with the fact that its my friend from high school that he commented on.
let that be the reason..PLEASE LET IT BE THAT REASON!
i need to sort this out for sure.


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